Time rolls on, work is slowly getting somewhat less crazy as time for Valhalla approaches. I always become a combination of depressed, manic, and generally a stress puppy when faire time comes around. I’m trying desperately to get into high gear for the faire, but I feel rather like I’m a manual transmission car and I’m grinding the gears (or the clutch is just continually popping out of place).

I have a number of things to do in the next day or so to get most of the current things tied up, but I suppose I’ll get to them all. Oh crap, just remembered I need to send the next amount for the venue rental fees off tomorrow. Meh.

The GTA stuff is calming down, so that’s a plus on the work side. Not that everythings been solved, but the optimizations are getting fewer and fewer. I need to pull open the MiniMe Processors again tomorrow to see if I can do the dbPreLoad in a side thread to sideline that while processing is happening. Bleh, I’m rambling, don’t mind me, drive on. Next it looks like some more stuff using my Teams/Clans SDKs so that’ll be cool, as long as people stop wanting me to do custom implementations each time. What’s the point of making a shared system when everyone want’s their own custom version. Meh.

For the personal, I’m just tired. Apologies to all the delayed emails and notes people have been sending me over the last month or so, I wish I could say that it’s been my typical flakiness, but I am actually alive, just been buried under work, and then just so far out of my regular sleep patterns and mojo that I’m just kind of in a basic malase that I’ve got what, about two weeks to shake off?

Hm, what else - had a meeting with a new venue that looks like we’ll have an ideal location for a new 2009 event to take the place of Pittsburg Faire in the immediate region, though the dates will most likely be an end of September kind of date. Details on that to follow as time progresses. It was actually on the way back to the office from that meeting that some of this really rather hit me. At this point I can pitch RenProd to almost anyone, anywhere. We know well what we’re doing, come across as more than competent, experienced with planning and production, and all that hooey. But to what end? At this point anything we set out to prove, we’ve done that. Now it’s just tiring. Exhausing even, and for what? If we don’t start getting into some serious black this year (more than we have), then this is just a bit too much to keep on doing without getting something back out of it.

So yea, after the first two decades, it does start to wear on you. Time for bed I think, I’ll be clearer in the morning.